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Natnatzoner, nat, or tasha
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Hello my little children!
Welcome to my DA (Deviantart) Page! Im a 15 year old anime drawer who really likes anime and WORLD OF WARCRAFT!!! . . .Yes im epicly weird got problem with it well i really don't care what you think about me i will never EVER change for anybody or anything!
Really i have one true friend and im just fine about that, she's my baby sister and i love her with all my heart, soo if theres somebody out there being mean to her be warned now i will hunt you down to the ends of the earth if need to. This great friend of mine is monkeymonkey153 soooo go check her out, NOW!
A couple of things you need to know about me, i am no bullshiter if you ask for my opinion you will get one and a truthful one at that so don't get all mad at me if you ask for one. I have sarcasm, i use it all the time and i also have a sents of humor a very weird sents of humor.
I also have a boyfriend is a long distance relationship soo wemon or men if you have any relationship problems im here to help, im like Doctor Phile for these things!
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: Human - Krewella
  • Watching: Attack on Titan
  • Playing: World Of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Tea for the swore throat
Hey guys, been awhile since I made one of these.
But anyway this is not going to be your averaged happy Journal, couple months ago I was diagnosed with Depression and no I'm not posting this for attention it actually has token me awhile to grab the courage and start writing about this and I'm sadly to say it has messed up my willpower to draw or get ideas to do any art. And to that I am sorry to all who are actually looking forward into seeing my art work.
When I first found out that I had depression I thought to myself "Okay, why do I have it. I'm the most happiest person and I also have no reason to be this way." But then my therapist who gotten me to write a Journal for 5 months said to me "You might be the happiest person but deep down you know you are hurting inside and your just trying to hide it from everybody you know so they don't have to worry about you. And since you've been going it so long it's starting to take a big hit." then I noticed he was right, all I've been doing is hiding my feelings trying to keep everybody, all my friends and family happy and not to worry about me because I thought at the time I guess that would be to selfish of me to do that to everybody else, But in truth it would of saved me from getting depressed and having these horrible thoughts of "Why's and What if's."
At times I feel stupid for letting it get this bad, when I knew I could of stopped it from getting this bad but I guess I'm the selfish one here. And to that, I am deeply sorry, to my closest friend for being a selfish bitch and not thinking about you and how you would react to this. You made a Journal just like this and I cried to it because right then I noticed I failed on keeping you happy and now, I can tell you worry about me everyday and I didn't ever want you to worry about me. I'm sorry for putting on a fake smile, I'm sorry for faking being happy but to tell you the truth I don't think I'll be able to feel what it is like the be truly happy again. I'm am just so sorry for putting this on you, knowing you have problems of your own.

I'm just so so sorry for doing this to you. I love you. And I promise if I ever have even one thought of self-harming myself fiscally I will let you know so you are there to stop me. 

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cogwurx Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Professional Interface Designer
Thank you for the :+fav:!
Joe-Roberts Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
 Thanks for faving :)
Doctor Who, Dr Who by Joe-Roberts 
Ultra-Sempai Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
Thanks for the llama. Tell a few friends about the page :)
YukiSamui Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! :heart:
Natnat-Zoner Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem!Heart  I love you Dragon Age comics I couldn't stop laughing Happy2 
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